In Pieces I am

In the prime of life...
suddenly
A gist of purpose,a kernel of thought

How can a blast of feeling
averted with ease and smooth?
Never look at me
with the glaring eyes of askance
beneath the peeking smile,
is a cascade of tears
tough it is...never been prosaic
struggling to emancipate
the bound rooted for years

Mortal is this, surmise you must not!
Till you come and be someone
with my own soul try to breathe

Skeptical may seem...
but sound judgment I never claim
Far from the verity, unobjectionable and whole
now this is me,
in smash pieces Iam...
waiting not to be devoured or volley
but someone to cull, in own heart be cache

 (2010)

Better Left Unsaid

This is the poem I made for my Best friend who really means so much to me. One  fine day, something came up, and I just can't find it in my heart to tell her about it, for I know it will really break her heart...

There are things better left unsaid,

For the hurt it may cause can never be altered

Though I wish to tell you the truth-

After all “NO SECRETS” we repeatedly deemed and oath

But surely things will never be the same

Once you know... I’m afraid, you will truly be lame

You keep on telling me you are numb,

Despite the immeasurable pain, never will you succumb

But forgive me, I felt knowing this would break your heart!

It’ll not only give you tears, but even tear you apart!

I hate feeling guilty, for in fact I should NOT!

God knows how I love you dearly…without a tiny spot.

I wanted to hold you, and embrace you tightly;

Give you the assurance that life would turn out lightly

I tried hard to forget, though it’s haunting me and I’m aghast

I felt so betrayed, turned me into pieces and undeniably abashed

I was deeply hurt…yes, I was bothered-but I don’t care,

It’s you I’ve been thinking, taking chances I won’t dare.

But then I come to realize…forgiving would ease the pain,

And forgetting would turn the heartaches, into futile and vain!

It will heal my wounded mind, pamper my bruised soul;

Bring back my confidence, with less effort and toil!

Being open and frank, not subtle –“that’s what I want” you said;
Since our FRIENDSHIP is eminent, that is what I tried and now I did.

And so I thank you, now I’m a bit at ease,
But so sorry I know, in ebb you are …not at peace!

All I can give you is my fervent prayer and promise,

To make all the means, for your happiness to flourish

Ask for the TRUE strength, that only God can give,
Assure you of REAL FRIENDSHIP that will last till the end!

(2010)

My life has just began....

25th Feb 2013

This is my third year celebrating  birthday away from my love ones. It's been three long years that I've been trying to convince myself that I am happy...I had ONE wish on that day...quite realistic it may seem, but sadly, it wasn't granted! Well, I didn't have the guts to voice it out in the first place....(like many other things I should have voiced out.) I just thought somebody will be sensitive enough to discern the wish in my eyes. (ha ha...as usual, me and my assumptions...unending speculations)

Nevertheless, with the initiative of my close friends, I managed to enjoy a little time outside (hmm mm if you can consider that frequent checking of the phone while in the Bar- as "enjoying"...yeah, I enjoyed! :P)

There was one incident happened later part of my supposedly "BIG " day, that almost caused me to feel really bad .(well, it did affect me a bit, I won't deny that) but I managed to compose myself and turned it as a funny incident instead... (with the hilarious re- enactment of some of the concerned friends HA HA)

Anyway...the main thing is...I am in the stage of my life where I have to stay focus! Stay focus on so many things, mainly important ones. As the days passes  by, everyone of us is grabbed with an opportunity  to do the things we ought to do and dreams we wish to fulfill. Everyday is a life's journey we have to travel, everyday is a battle we all have to fight for..But in the end however, there is no measurement of success..only the gratification of  how we enjoy our sojourn in this world....

Let me leave you with a very funny but  realistic thoughts:

"Don't think much about the past, it brings TEARS...Don't think more about the future, It brings FEARS...Just Think about today, it brings CHEERS!"

The Debutante...LOL!

So CHEERS to TODAY! and Thank God for another Stressful...arduous ...striving BUT definitely Fulfilling Life  I lead....
Just wishing for more more years to share with my love ones.....